Article written for Volume 2, Issue 6 of ‘Luminous Wisdom: Sophia’ (a Sibella Publications magazine).
Nothing gives a buzz like new plans and a change of direction. We shoot along with excitement and an obsessive search for adventure knowing it is fun seeking aims and plans with one eye on the future. However sometimes it can be a juggle between that very future and the present. The idea of “taking it easy” can feel frustrating!
My major challenge as a self-confessed restless soul, is accepting Universal hints of needing patience and synchronicity. As always, an eye-opening event occurred creating limitations in my way of life and, most certainly in my thinking. Things suddenly became slower. And I might say, more annoying in its slowness. When finally, a health diagnosis arrived that was a carbon copy of other family members and I was informed that I simply could not move forward until my situation was stabilised, my heart sank. All the way to the bottom of the pond. My body was begging me to listen to it. I thought that feeding my body with nutritional food, exercising and cutting back on my work a bit would be the answer. However I was not really listening. The signs were in front of me for a long time and yet I pursued the thought that my body was not holding up its end of the bargain. When I was weary, I would harass it. Daily I pushed myself to exercise and improve my diet. All very lovely except that I began to feel worse.
As at last, I considered my body and acknowledged how much effort it had undergone to keep me working to the level I demanded of it, I could see the battle I had propelled myself into. I had prodded my body through weariness to keep going in my daily life without real useful rest in order to fulfil my Soul Purpose. Yet there was nothing about this behaviour that was beneficial to myself or anyone else. Not once had I thanked my body for all the effort. It was time to forgive myself for the thoughtless push.
My body had faithfully attempted everything that I had demanded of it and more. With this painfully slow new wisdom, I thanked myself for my achievements. In future, I will continue to move forward and aim for things of interest and motivation. Except now, I will adapt when my body suggests it and gently negotiate in a companionable togetherness of vessel and will. We are at last working together.
A simple fact began to make its point. There is nowhere to hide when it comes to our health and there is no room to disrespect our battle weary bodies. We can become very good at pushing along with an overzealous self-encouragement yet we each go through a lot as a Soul in a Body. Each individual trial throughout life adds up to highlight how hard our remarkable forms try to make us proud. Is it time for you to gift yourself more gentle acknowledgment?